怎么办?

突然好想好想谈恋爱~

其实也不是突然的想

是渴望了很久,但不敢开诚布公的讲出来,即使现在也是SECRETLY...I'M ASHAMED OF THAT.....

想找一个人 把几十年的感情都宣泄给他

把很可爱性感的一面全展现给他

可不可以?

为什么我总是个失败的爱情HR呢

 

秋天来了 我却在发春

我的爱情之花连发芽的机会都没有吗?

i made a general plan to compensate for what i dont no,what i need to no and what i should do.i hope it will work.

anyway,this morning,when dad saw the paper of my plan (allthough i'm not sure if he did see it) i felt insulted,really.

i dont no y.it seems i always feel this way.

is it my problem?y do i feel and act like this???

i cant understand myself~

...confused

这次玩的很开心（也放开了些）

也许是有了什么寄托　听了些明知是客套却当真的话

不过确实很开心　那个酒店很赞　是我住过的第２棒的了　也许因为新建的关系　所以一切很有条理　而且很注重细节　让我快乐的小细节

那是我最特别的唱Ｋ经历　原来唱歌也可以有这么多节目～　开眼了　哈哈　那里比上海的普通歌城还高级哦～

生平第１次去浴场　ＷＯＷ那个浴场造的和皇宫差不多饿　第１次擦背（还是减轻版的）

不过．．．把小飞侠２天前送我的漂亮耳钉掉了．．．赔礼拉（还好还好　只掉了一个．．．）

据妈妈说　我去过狼山

可是我一点印象也没有（是啊　我现在象是失忆一样－－局部失忆：除了ＴＨＥ　ＦＵＣＫＩＮＧ　ＡＦＦＡＩＲＳ　什么都很快忘记．．．．）

找到了一个只属于我们３人的地方　在如此热闹　游人如织的景点

呵呵　好开心

恩～快开学了　我真是要收收心了

 

口口声声问我什么时候回来　

可是　却

是我想的太多

拜托　你

消失吧

别来烦我

好不好

 

庸人自扰．．．．．．．

 

今天COUPLE请我吃饭~STUFFED

很感谢 真的

祝福 还是祝福~

 

 

虽然咳嗽到不行了,但...

5是个超级好的人,对朋友超好,还没有人那么关心...EXCEPT....

身边朋友们也没有那么问长问短.THANKS INDEED.^-^

其实如果换成了是我的朋友COUGH我不知道自己会怎样,客套的关心一下,还是...还是...

有时"朋友"让我觉得可悲.

5是界限把握的很好的人,不会让人觉得暧昧.NO DUBIOUSNESS.

GLAD 2 HAVE SUCH A 上路的朋友.呵呵~

 

上限却一句话也不和我说...

喜欢ANNE HATHAWAY 因为很贝 BEAUTY WORSHIP~~

喜欢最后米兰达在车上的一笑,我一开始的理解是,她懂了她,并开始思考自己是否也要QUIT

但后来那个DEVIL的GO又透露出其本性.每个人都有TA的追求,TA的坚持,TA想要的生活.不要因为其他事情而放弃或改变.

看到好几个朋友这样写到.要继续勇敢的走下去,因为这是自己选择的路.

但我还是有点迷茫,因为我没有想清我的路,我的选择,我没有选择过,确切的说,是没有清醒真正的选择过.

就象DAD说的一样,脚踩西瓜皮,滑到哪里是哪里.NO PLAN,NO CONSIDERATION FOR FUTURE.

 

在以后的工作里一定会遇到象ANNE遇到的事情,不要抱怨,不要失意,不要缄默.

把事情做的周全详尽,然后自信的交给BOSS.

也许我现在就要改尽起来了

比如健忘,比如GET THINGS SLOW...

 

O RIGHT,A HAPPY MOVIE.

 

T'S THERE,SHOULD I GO THERE AND SAY HELLO?

看了LOST IN TRANSLATION

完全看不懂饿~

去看了评论.总算有点理解了.

O RIGHT,CALL ME SHALLOW FROM NOW ON.....

最近在攻LOST,看的很辛苦,然后觉得不值得,漏掉一集也不没感觉的.因为太零碎了.就好象拼拼图,其实先拿到哪块有时并不是很重要,然后得到太多块零碎的拼图,又离完整遥遥无期时,就渐渐失去兴趣和耐心了.所以还满想放弃的.但愿自己能够放弃.REALLY

BUT PROBABLY IMPOSSIBLE.HEHE

 

是我不领情,是我拎不清.

我不会看三是,不会识人头.

...其实,最重要的是我没有遵守我的底线,我总是模糊它,让它一次一次无条件的退后.

我把信任当作放任.我辜负了...

I DON'T WANT TO LET u down.

i'm so sorry.really.

i hope u can feel it.

u will ,won't u?

讨厌这种场合,也讨厌自己的无能,不是酒量,而是不会说话,没那么精明,反应也慢.

自己所能做的就是多吃菜,别浪费,[祭奠那些逝去的课点],笑容,BE ELEGANT,GOOD MANNER[似乎这样做的目的不是BE POLITE而是勾引...]

AM I INSANE OR JUST DRUNK? AM I BULLSHITING OR TELLING WHAT'S INSIDE MY HEART?

I DON'T KNOW...

P gave me sth. special.he's not a guy with apparent action that i didn't know anything about the crush until STT told me.i don't believe it,though.he's abviously not a proper one 4 me but everyone's willing 2 know that,right?to feel the intangible value and charm (s)he has.

it's just sth. in wrinting. maybe it's not about me at all.

anyway,feel like being remembered and cared in this way... 

i feel i'm on a isolated island as the people in 'lost'  do.

i'm always wondering what's the next step to me.i don't know who they are or who it is.

 

 

maybe he's tired of me. change name secretly when i'm off and disappear when i'm on.

maybe he's always there but just not available to me.

maybe he's just lying and making the sweet word as a habit.that's not 4 me.

maybe he's indifferent to things about me at all.

i've just....................thought 2 much.yeah~

all the words i said turned  into bullshit...

last night i had a unbelieveable dream which will never happe in real life i guess.5&i were ...i almost forgot the plot of the story.but it's really sweet and cute.

i've watched too much dramas which harm my eyes a lot.i feel thatthey are falling out. they're so attractive and irresistible that i can't wait to see the next episode after one.

i didn't go to the EC today which seems to be a little abnormal cuz i don't want to be absent everytime i can make. i don't know if there's anything gone wrong.

it's cold to stay at home that  my frozen fingers pains me sometimes.

YY is on top of the world at the moment.and she always is while i'm STILL alone.

is it destiny?or sb. does sth. wrong which he or she has to make up for it in the whole life with permanent loneliness?

DKDKDKDKDK...